holiday~pig life~

since 17 November 2010 night 10:30 from labuan-kk-sibu back to my home sweet home town kuching until now everyday my life just like a pig ~ sleep late late wake up late late eat eat eat ~ Oh My God~ damn boring life. Everyday i really had a very boring day! super boring! very boring ! DUPER BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!But fortunately I found a job to fill my days in the holidays. 3 days of PC Fair work really fun, but the days passed quickly.And now, I have to rewind the days of boring again~ shit men~~~~~~~~~what should i do in the next fews week holiday ??????????????

time past so fast

the time past so fast,
soon will be end of my second year 1st sem.
on this actually i feel that life is unpredictable
everything are coming without let you know it........

still remember the the first month i come back is staying at Manikar Hotel just because my hostel are in the renovation process
next, i feel want to really thank to my dear God~~~~~muackisssssss. Because was happen on that time ~now just it pass never think back !
third, just 2 day ago, that was a male from my campus was pass away because of drowned at my campus sea.......may his soul can R.I.P
Now is the exam week, the most suffer week for me. every night just average sleep 3 hour............damn suffer..But when come to the day exam go in the main hall still got a little bit confidance but when open the exam paper...Oh SHIT! my brain stuck and dunno how to do it. Just only few question can manage it, the rest just write my own opinion and GORENG SAJA LAH! Never let it blank, at least me got try to do it.

Just left 2 paper, English reading and writing, and OB......this 2 paper my carry still ok la~ but i hope i still can get high mark in my final paper. I don't want to give up any chance !
Left 3 days i can go back to my HOME SWEET HOME soon ~~yeah ~~~wait for this moment so long.
Now what i can do is study hard hard ~~~~~GAMBATEH!!!!!!!

这里不是属于我的地方

突然间我觉得不是属于这个地方

虽然每天都脸带笑容但是心里却在滴血

我也不喜欢这里，是是非非弄得我很烦！

我喜欢独自一个人的感觉

我喜欢没有被约束的感觉

我喜欢自己一个人静静的思考

自己一个人听我喜欢的歌

自己一个人做我喜欢的东西

我不喜欢看人的脸色而做东西

我不喜欢被人绑

我更加不喜欢无缘无故被人拖下水

如果你觉得你信不得过我，就不要告诉我有关于你个人任何私事。

我自己也不喜欢听~因为我听得越多我的心就越烦~

我喜欢说我自己喜欢的话~

我爱怎么说就怎么说

你不喜欢听是你自己的事~

你可以选择不要听，但是你没资格阻止我的发言权利

Vitas- Opera 2

Today, I finally found my favorite singer VITAS dolphin sounds
He is a Russian singer
His high pitch voice that I hear some really very very excited

come and enjoy it~~~^^

Today, I finally found my favorite singer VITAS dolphin sounds
He is a Russian singer
His high pitch voice that I hear some really very very excited

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ygJYxMP_ICYcome and enjoy it~~~^^

放了我吧！

你明知道我已经避开你逃避你

我就再次求你拜你不要再来找我

我在此想说个明白我要和你绝交！

你明白什么叫做绝交吗？！！！！！！绝交！！！！！！！！

所以以后我再也不想看到你在我的任何有关的网站留言！

以后咱们河水不犯井水

你过你的桥我走我的路！

kundasang trip

helo all my friend~

damn long me didn't come here update.....

well~~~~~~~~

few week ago, me follow with my community PMSPKAL go to kundasang trip in 3 day 2 night....

damn happy in the journey...

1st day me damn teruk la~~~

vomit 2 time~

because i forget to bring my medicine....

haiz~~~

but i still very happy~~~~~

i never forget that the 1st day i reach at there....

it's in midnight around 12p.m~~~

damn cold~

after that we are divided into few group....

we also got the mama and papa angkat neh~~

so luckily i'm been choose stay with a damn nice family members.

we all are staying in home stay....

my mama and papa are very nice people....

both of them very sweet......

although their are malay, but that was me first time feel very touching and even i never forget that in the last day i back to Labuan....i cried ~~~~~~i cry because of their care........

love them very much~
i also taste their local meal ....

very nice~

at kundasang air very fresh and and than some more the moment that never forget too is during the shower time~~

damn cold men~~~~~~
omg~ really seem like using the ice water to take our bath.....

oh~~~~

in the second day we are went to hot spring,and others beautiful place.

i also got go to the cow farm...

the place like New Zealand we see the cow and the milk process....

me like crazy lady....

buy 2L big bottle milk drink.....

even my lecturer say me crazy ~~~hahaha

at night we have a BBQ section

BUT~~~~~~hahahha

me as the Food Exco also not be there.......

whr am i???

i still at my home eat my mama and papa cook de local meal~~~

nice !!!!!!

some more we also enjoy the durian~~

our mama make some salad and our papa make the Bubur( green bean + coconut milk+banana+durian)

feel so happiness and full of joy~~~~

in the last day morning, i really feel don't want to come back to Labuan~

i hung my mama~~~~

she was a good mama

she make some sambal and chili sauce for us to bring back and some more banana cake~~

love you my Kundasang mama and papa

after we leave, our last station is strawberry garden

me buy a lot dry strawberry to my mummy.

i know my mummy like it ~~~

anyways want to see more picture welcome to my facebook~~

haha^^ have a nice day ~

the secret ~~

anyone got their own self secret right?

for my secret is damn sweet one~
i will keep it in my heart for ever and ever~~~
enjoy the secret by myself~

enjoy the miracle in my life,

enjoy the life that i choose.

this secret actually is very meaningful to me~

love the way, and the reason.

haha~~

what i can say is secret life, single life =simple life~~

wakakaka~~~~~~

let the wonderful, meaningful and miracle secret keep it in my life and my mind forever~

every time when i think it, i will smile, i will happy and some time i will feel sad for that secret.

some time when i can't sleep or emoting i will also will think it~after that i will feel more better.

so, i hope that this secret will always keep it in my heart forever and ever~~~~

my second year 3rd sem ~~~~~~uni life~~~~

will~~~~~~~

time pass so fast,

be senior already.

in this sem i'm not staying at mutiara anymore again~

have to move two time, since i back to here.

at 1st i'm stying at manikar hotel.

A place like royal jail, but at least can enjoy a lot of thing such as swimming pool(too bad i'm not swim), air-corn, unlimited water, and also the big big bed~~~~~

love it~~

actually at 1st i really dun like my second year uni life cause it was happening a lot of thing about my study and others thing too.

but seem now i got a lot of new friend when staying at manikar~

especially senior ~~~

During at manikar time, i can feel the silent in the night, the happy and the craziness.

at least i can't feel the stress.

and now I'm already move in beta almost 1 week.

at 1st i really dun like stay in campus~

cause i scare i the environment is not what i want and need.

but so far, my uni got change a lot for our hostel.

got water now, new fan, and good securities.

second year really very busy. everyday rushing my assignment and homework especially in business stat this course. OMG really killing my life.CONNECT me to hell.

but i still will try my best to bit them !

i want to my best to get good pointer in this sem. my last sem result although got increase 0.5 CGPA but i still want to be the best for my own self. i dun want to compare with others but i will compare to myself, with this i can improving myself. hahaha~~~

try to improving myself kao kao ~~~~

bit my pass hit the looser be the best !!!!!!

pray hard to my dear God~~~

please always stay with me, i really need your help and power to cover me and support.

i believe i can do it! nothing is impossible KU LING FUNG! trust yourself can do it!

BIT IT!!!!!!

Mmm...Kuching Food!

dear my friend finally i found a video that kuching very famous food and the stall~~~~~~~hahaha~~~~~~~

bad mood T.T

damn down now~

so sad now~

sad about myself

why i can't do it more better~

why i can't do it?

what is the problem?

i though my result can over that pointer.

but isn't..................

although got increase

but what my target is not only for that standard.

i think i can do more better than last sem~

ya it's true~my result is increase~

but not enough to cover my 1st sem result~

and another thing is my Oral~

damn fucking~

i put very high expectation in this subject ,

but at the end up~

oh my god! really a big different lor~

so sad now~

what should i do?

keep going and fight for the best in next sem and others.

i told my mum, if i get lower that pointer in this sem, for sure i quit my Uni life~

no meaning i get lower pointer and still keep going to study ~

no point!

but luckily, the God still let me continues my study~~~

start my second year uni life soon~

what I can say to my 1st sem uni life is just a past~~~~~

so forget about it~

try my best to get more better~

hate my tutor also no use~

damn strict she marking my oral~

and she still dare to say my is the best in my class~

shit~

i dun believe lor~ cheating me~

think me is a kids?

one more lesson i learn from this situation is never try to believe your lecturer or tutor say you are the best in this class~

for sure no good ending!

BELIEVE ME!

another week to go ~~

come back hometown already 1 month liao~

omg time past so fast and during holiday my life like a vampire~

sleep in the morning wake up in the afternoon at night active~~~~

oh please lar~if not like that how can i survive during this holiday ~oh shit~

ok! during holiday me have to plan how to keep fit and diet ~

but~~~~~

sound like easy, when to do it susah lor!

arh!!!!!!!

I'm not fat but is obese ~~

sad lar~

fat lady !

shit!!!!!!!

mom say me never slim

i told my mom i never stop eating so that why I'm fat!

too enjoy my life

because in my mind just think that life to eat~

so just enjoy it!

however, i dunno why my brother are slim than me?

He ate a lot than me!

how come har?

ish!

not fair lar! me even breathe also will become fat!

die!@.@

haiz~since i come back to hometown, i just realized that many of my friend have children.

omg! should I plan for my future start from now?

see the children's innocence cute, let me mothering seizures~~~~

yer~~~so cute!

too bad I still very enjoy my single life~

single life simple life~

wakakaka~

By the way, during holiday my best friend fetch me go to shopping, eating, chatting and so on~

damn long didn't have such life ~ damn like it ~tonight we are having Pizza Hut ~yuhoo~~~~like it! Anyways still need to thank a lot to she lar~ lol

ah har!

during holiday i also learn a lot new dishes....

too bad when back to Labuan i can't cook it at there~

cause not too convenient. ish !

hate it!

ok now time 4:50p.m！

I need to prepare my dinner for my lovely family~

haha~~~~~~bye~~~~~~enjoy you life, enjoy your time~

1 day 2 post~my new hair~

last week i was go to cut my hair~after the barber cut cut cut~ i look at my hair like coconut ~~iew~~~~~it's look so strange~~~haiz~~~~~~~~~bobian~~~~~~just accept it~~~~~~~~~T.T

new watch~~~~~~

yesterday night me fetch my mummy, granny and my brother go to eat supper.

suddenly my granny say she want to buy a new watch for me~ damn happy!!!!!!!

yeappy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! although the watch that i choose is boy style watch but I like it very much~It sounds like a very strange, right? girl buy boy watch~ mum say me crazy liao~ buy boy watch~ but mummy i like it~~~~~~hehe~~~~~wat ever thx granny~ i will always take care of it and always SAYANG it~~~~~~lol~~~~last time my old watch was gone ~and I'm very sad~8 year liao~~~suddenly it was gone!~granny know me sad about it~so she say buy a new 1 for me~~~~~waakakakakaka. very happy!!!!!!!hahahhaha~~~~~~

Sarwak people live where?

I still remember that when I joined the National Service, for fist time someone asked me whether the people of Sarawak still live in trees or caves it?(speechless)

The second time, when I entered the first year of university, people still keep asking me same question whether the Sarawak people still live in the trees or caves? (faint)

Do you know what I answered them?(thinking)

I say ya~ (sarcastic smile *.* )

We are living in the caves and trees but it's with lift and our transport is helicopter. What a stupid question and answer.
Haiz~now is what century already? Still live in the caves and trees mei? (sweating =.=!!!)

aduh mak! Pengsan la~(fainting again :S)

Cannot be denied that in ancient times people living in Sarawak is a cave and a tree.That is fact. However, times change, people constantly developed. Everything is changing now. Sarawak now is prosperous city. But we still keep the traditional culture and also to avoid all this missing.(strongly agree)

Hope others can come to Sarawak travels trip. First, people can know more about local customs and culture. Second, to break through personal stranger to this place. Familiar words as well read the book a trip break rolls.(@.@)

So I hope someone else will not ask me the same question. I very welcome all of you can come to my hometown. There are a lot of authentic foods that you may not be tasted. Food is what people most likely to attract. ^^ I’m sure that you guys will like it.wakakaka (Cheeky + clapping hand Vnn)~

母亲的微笑

弯弯的月亮下，有一条弯弯的小河。

小小的屋子里有位母亲在用她那一双手摇着怀里的孩子。

看那孩子睡得香甜，母亲的脸上浮现微微的慈母的微笑。

岁月已过，虽孩子们渐渐的长大，但母亲依然在脸上沾上那慈母般的微笑。

一个甜蜜的慈母微笑，笑在母亲的脸上，甜在儿女的心上。

然而孩子们要用什么来保持母亲的微笑呢？

金钱无法买回母亲的微笑。

毕竟金钱是身外物。

一份孝心，比起金钱来得更加重。

无形的礼物比起有形的礼物来得划。

父母的恩，比山来得高，比还来得深。

这份恩，永远难还。

母亲的微笑。

比任何的仙丹来得好。

山珍海味，不如母亲的巧手烧的菜。

姜还是老的辣。

母亲的经验就是宝

呵呵 ~~~~~~

母亲~~~~

谢谢你的爱~

谢谢的关怀~

更加要谢谢无时无刻在我们的身边支持~~~

谢谢~~~~~

回到家乡后的心情

其实这几天回到家乡看见家人的确是很开心。

回乡看家人才是我最终的目的。

家人比起任何事情来得重要。

但，还是觉得大学生涯也不赖。

虽然那里的生活很忙碌，但是生活都过得很充实。

回到家乡中还是有些是让我很不开心。

我只能说日久见人心。

人不可貌相，海水不可斗量。

做人千万别信口开河。做不到就别给人家希望，说话要算数。

做任何事之前，就要先设定好。

别到最后让人家失望。

让人一场欢喜一场空。

认识越久的朋友，越看得到为人不知的的内幕。

所以朋友之间除了信任之外，还有一个重要的关键就是懂得容忍。

包容，容忍，容纳都是很重要的。

一个笑容带过就算了。

别因为小事放在心上。

避免有伤和气。

但是谁先打破这个规则谁就要负责。

没人会帮你承担。

我只能说人类是很自私的，尤其是遇到问题时。

对！有些事情他们愿意一起承担。

但是如果遇到一个超级大事情时，是否真的有四海之内皆兄弟？

我只能说患难见真情，我从不否认这一点。

无论对方是谁，千万别太相信对方的话语。

往事不如今日,月会圆，花会红，人心更加会变。

相信这两个字再也很难在这世纪出现了。

无论是婚姻，朋友，还是亲人都是一样的。

都必须依靠相信的两个字来生活。

如果谁打破了。

结局就是不堪设想。

也许比想象中来得更惨。

所以听过，看过就算了~

不一定要放在心上的。

算了吧~我也不想去想了。

如果要我计较起来，可以说累计成堆山。

他们要怎样就随他人吧~~~

我不想去追究。

但我的人耐度是有限的。

我不希望有人打破它。

at home liao~

finally i'm already come back home.

wait for 12 hour start from morning 9a.m until 9p.m back to kuching.

feeling much more better now.........

but why this time after i'm back to home feel nothing.

why i will become like that?

sound unlike me?

oi!!!!!!!!!

what i'm saying?????

why my heart still at Labuan?

come back la ling fung

now holiday~~~~

please dun think about other thing that related Labuan~~~~

you are now at Kuching!

not Labuan~~~~~~~

come back la your soul ~~~~~~~

shit!!!!!!!!!

going back home sweet home~~~~~

today 4/5/2010

time 12:44a.m

left few more hour i will leave this island back to my home town soon~~~~home sweet home~~~~what i can say this two semester i get a lot of friend....especially for my 3rd year senior also my housemate. Kak Lin and Gil Gil~both of them is my best senior and housemate...1st at all i want to thank to them giving us support and their also sharing they experience with me.Thank a lot to your guys~i will always keep in my heart~friendship forever. Without them, I can't do it well. Recall back the past, this two semester in my uni life that was happen a lot of thing. In 1st semester, I learn what is called leadership, friendship and even true love. A love between friend and friend~~~~haha~And in this semester 2, I learn what is called selfishness. It's very strange right?But it's true. A selfishness let me learn how to become a generous heartiness person. Now me are still learning how to become more better than before. Learn from the mistake. That is the best way that i can do it.Whatever now, i need to try to be more responsible. Start a new day, start a new life. Never try to give up! Actually, study university is not easy. Hardworking is the most important for a uni student. Not only that, respectful and humbler also very important.

In my heart now, i'm praying to my god and wish that all my friend including my senior hope their are good luck for now and future too....A money can't buy a true relationship. Good bye to all of you. One day i sure that we will meet together again~~~~~~God will prove it!

ok now is the time to rest ~ good night and bye bye labuan ~~~~~~~wakakakkaa

KUCHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

失眠的夜晚

失眠的夜晚，不知该如何地度过。最近都忙着考试都没办法整理自己的部落。回想一下这几天的考试情况只能说靠天意。最近都一个心结就连自己都不敢解开，因为以当这个结打开我不知道会发生什么事。是好是坏只有我知，天知，及地知就够了。要不要解开它就要等待天时地利人和咯~回想这个学期真的过得很快。一转眼第一年的大学生涯就快要结束了，迈向第二年的大学生涯了。压力会增加更多，烦恼也会一样更加多。唯有知识增加是件好事。

突然间想问自己为何自己喜欢过单身的日子？喜欢？还是不喜欢？我只能给自己一个答案顺其自然。有还是没有都不能强人所难。喜欢一个人不一定要挂在嘴边。摆在心里面自己开心，自己暗爽就够了啦！无为跟人家讲他是谁谁谁啦！一是为了自己早想，二是为了对方。有没有机会在一起只有老天知道。每次都被人质问有没有男朋友啊！我只能回答读书先，但是这句话回答得有点勉强。有时就连自己的老妈都不放过自己的女儿，问我有没有？我只能对着我的老妈子说：‘哪里有将老妈的啦！”也许是自己的老妈子的思想比起自己的概念比较摩登吧！而自己的思想比较传统，老古板吧~但是拥有老古板的思想不是一个罪吧~嗨~谁说每个年轻人一定是很新潮摩登啦！我就是例外的那一个。我很注重传统。因为只有传统的概念才是有怀念的味道，值得让人回忆过去最美好的时光。

再过几天就可以回家了~三天过后就是回家乡的日子了~期待这一天的来临很久了~望着窗外的月光心里想念着家乡。真的名句讲得好，举头望明月,低头思故乡。雪白的月光突然也让我想听许美静的“城里的月光”这首歌~一首温柔曲调的歌正好培育我写部落的心情。心里想着喜欢的人在漫漫长夜里思念他是一种享受。何乐而不为呢！夜里2点40分了~不知他们在做么呢？睡觉了吗？有没有盖好被？家是我一辈子最好的避风港，避难属，靠山，也是我最终归地的地方。城里的月光，把梦照亮，请守护他/她身旁。。。。。。。。。愿月亮用它最温柔的月光来保护我最深爱的人~~~~

好啦~是时候睡觉啦~希望有个甜蜜的梦吧~把喜欢的人化在梦里~晚安了各位~~~~

考试！压力！

考试考试考试！搞得我团团转！头痛头痛头痛！因为功课的分数搞得我没心情学书~可是我也不想要将的啊！为什么每次当我有心的，全心全意地做某样东西到头来得到的是那么失望的结果。我不要求多但我要求好。难道将也很难达到吗？我很怕我这个学期的考试成绩退步。因为如果再退步的话。我觉得我再读下去也没用，要重考那倒不如退学。士可杀不可辱。宁愿退学好过留级。由于上个学期的成绩很烂！所以这个学期我真的希望可以拿到3.0以上以弥补我上个学期的分数！我真的每天都在祈祷，希望老天能加力加智慧给我，给与我鼓励及支持。压力是在所难免的事，真的很烦恼。非常的懊恼，老实说我真的很害怕。我不想让我家人失望，我不希望我的家人有任何一个人被人说闲言闲语。我知道如果我真的退学而读不成大学，被人取笑的不只是我而已，就连我的家人也被受牵连的！我忍！我真的希望可以一级的反驳他们，但我又不希望因为我反驳他们造成大家都翻脸。这又何苦？心里非常的矛盾~天啊！！！！！！我需要你给我的力量！我承认我的心不够坚定，所以我希望您每天给我正力量来对付这些负能量~心魔才是我最大的敌人。要打败它就要先磨练自己的意志力。意志力不够坚定就会造成贪噌痴~贪玩，噌，痴迷~~~我要如何才能倒回以前高中四的我呢？高中四的我回来啊！！！！我需要你那时的勤劳，认真，及好学的我回来啊！我需要你！我的上天请您我以前认真上学的我调回来好吗？我需要他！

my 1st organization that i join in my uni life PMSPKAL~Nostalgia Night 2010~

in this 2nd sem i try to active myself during my uni life~

it's very hard to me~

but i would like to try to do it better~

some people mind say that join it for what?

this just only can make you more busy busy and busy

i don't care about it.

as long as i like it

i want to join what organization is my own choice

their people don't want active themselves is their own business~

what ever la~

i don't care so much~

what i want and what i like i just do it

as long is correct~

YA!

about that organization that i join in my uni is PMSPKAL

is mean "Persatuan Mahasiswa Sekolah Perniagaan Kampus Antarabangsa Labuan"

in this organization, we are doing some activity for all this University student join and play~

not even that in this organization, student can learn how to improving their soft-skill, knowledge, and even make more friend.

although my position in this organization is a secretariat

but i like it

some people told me that just a small position for what you join it

as i say just now as long i like it, i enjoy it

others thing i don't care about it~

i have my own right~

last week Saturday my PMSPKAL make a even name by ~NOSTALGIA NIGHT~

it's for 3rd year student that almost want graduate and dine list student(CGPA 3.5 above)

we all start planing this even in 5 week ago

although on that night our we are not do the best but the worst.

many problem are happen on that night

but at the end the even still finish

anyways, i think that we can do more better in next even

i believe we can do it~

a speechless life

the life in my world i feel that very speechless.

cause what i do i did i make i say and even i think feel very speechless

sometime i don't know why and what are the reason i come to this world?

it's useful for me come to this world?

see this all bad thing in this world?

so speechless.

not meaningful.

sometime i feel i so weak in study.

i agree that I'm not very good in my study, but i still want to try my best to do it.

but at the end, the result what i see not enough good and even more worse that i think or i plan it before.

very OMG!

by the way, my uni student are try to fight for their true human right.

so they try to protest and post it at Facebook.

Now very second when i open my Facebook, OMG what saw it just now everything wall post is all about the water crisis, and then now be more complicated cause got someone from outside people say our uni student stupid!

Hei!!!!!!!!this really feel very speechless you know!

who gonna start the Facebook war 1st ok ! dun simply say about my uni ok !

they are no wrong! they just want to fight for their right! Who can tahan so long because of long term water crisis problem?

NO right!!!!!

8 month ! already 8 month we cannot bath properly !!!!!!!everyday our body like salty fish!iew~so that why i say feel very speechless for my world life!!!!!!!no word that i can describe my life!

SPEECHLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

没水的日子之沙大纳国际学院学生抗议活动

读书读到没有水，这种日子长期一年下来的日子谁能了解我们的心声？

没有水的日子，我们花费精神，力气及金钱来过生活。就算有代学进或奖学金也是拿来买水过日子。

用矿泉水冲凉，学校的办公室厕所冲凉 甚至租车去飞机场冲凉的也有。

只不过想冲个凉也必须这么的奔波劳碌。

没水的日子，我们必须每天扛水扛到累甚至受伤。

没有水的日子，我们每天就像咸鱼般的身体过日子及上课。

没有水的日子，我们女生每天都必须扛水，从最低楼扛到三四楼。有的扛水扛到累，严重点，有的甚至扛到身体某个部分扭伤。脚扭伤，腰闪到~样样都有

就在今天，我们再也无法忍受这种没水的日子！

我们再也无法过坐以待毙的日子了！

大考即将来临，没水的日子真的叫人痛苦!

谁可以给我们一个可以信任的承诺？？？？？

谁可以给我们保障？

我们又不是没交付学费及宿舍费。

谁可以？谁可以？真地说实话，谁可以给我们生活上的保障？

我想没有吧~如果这座小岛无法满足学生生活的需求就别安顿我们在这里读书~

何必搞到今天发生学生抗议骚动~搞到学生罢课因为没有水~

何必lei ???????如果有早日解决那不就没事咯~

真的要等到这些学生全体罢课抗议示威才来解决~但已经没用了~学校的形象已经被毁灭了~

总部大学学院的设备样样齐全，但为何分校就连最基本的生活最基本必要的条件都无法办好。好失望噢~

团圆

就快要过一年一度的农历新年了，

心里充满着思念及期待。

因为过了今天，明天我就可以跟我家人团圆了。

以前我还不能了解团圆的真正的意义。

真正的团圆不是单单只是一家人在一起， 而是为了要与家人团聚，什么都不重要。

放下手头上的功课及课业，就是为了等待与家人见面。

每逢佳节真的要陪思亲。

现在我明白当游子那份的心情。

家人比起任何东西来得重要。

家永远是我的靠山，

家永远我的归宿，

家永远我最终要回的地方。

无论如何再忙再累我还是要回家，

就只是为了要团圆。

明天就是回家的日子了，

心里有无数的牵挂及惦念。

爸妈，您们再等一回吧！

我就开要回家了~

我也非常的惦念及期待地见你们，

我们全家一起团团圆圆在一起过新年！

yeah !!!!!!!!

~乱论篇~

最近觉得自己好悲观，一直都在找些借口骗自己。骗得了别人却骗不了自己。永远都过不了自己的那一关。世界上最难过的关卡就自己心里那个埋藏已久的事。那些烂借口来填补这个伤口，知道是行不通，但还是要去做。心情当然糟透。不可否认的是我最近真的觉自己很讨人厌。就连自己都很讨厌自己。总觉得自己很废！而且还是超废的那一种。问问自己是否真的有没有想要忏悔过，再问问自己为何那么的讨人厌？是不是要等人家开口对自己说：“其实我很讨厌你” 才甘愿呢？当然不想啦！

悲观的想法最近又在复发了，我还不容易用了两年的时间把这个坏习惯给改了，干吗又再次复发呢？而且是越来越严重的那种。就好像癌症复发，而且是最严重的那种。以前的悲观想法还能用很多心灵辅导治疗。难道上次我还没把它斩草除根吗？惨咯！难道真的要逼我走上不归之路吗？吃抗忧郁药过日子吗？我才不要呢！而且我发觉到自己很喜欢讲吃安眠药（只是说说而已），唉声叹气，心有余而力不从心。没有一天不是将过日子。每天在facebook post 一些有的没的。总觉得自己很窝囊。而且是一天不知道些几多东西在网页。写到被人家投诉自己发神经！我的天啊！其实我只想找个地方发泄我的情绪，也许我已经找错了地方发泄，到最后被人骂神经病。但唯一就是写在自己的部落里是最好的。什么好与不好的，开不开心的，通通写在这！

真心的付出，却得不到美好的回报。这就是我人生涯里所感受到的，想找个真正可以聊得真的就那么难吗？一位真心的朋友是多么难找，可惜我最要好的朋都不在我的身边。我需要你们的自持及鼓励就那么的简单。就是那么简单，却没人明白我要的就是那么简单。我现在不需要你们的回报，也不要你们的花言巧语。只需要自持与鼓励。其实真心的付出不在于收获，只在乎过程。收获多与少，我已经不在乎了，我已经看破了！最重要的是在过程中我学习了是什么，看到了什么。朋友这两个字里只需要信任，可惜，我却感受不到。非常的遗憾。有时候我在跟某人对话当中，到底对方又没有真心地聆听我的话呢？讲了那么多就好像跟空气对话。有时讲完之后问回对方，但却得到是对方的讽刺及冷言冷语。心里是很不好受。haiz~~~~~~无言。真是无言。非常的无言。

最后顺便也奉劝自己一句话思恩莫望报是人生一大美德。记住！！！！！！！！！！自己是不可以在那么的消遣下去了！我是一只打不死的蟑螂！！！！！！

写给自己的勉语。。。。

近来不知不觉已经回来大学生涯两个星期了，时间就像水长流，一去不回头。许多不如意的事多过去了，最重要是自己要如何对待自己。如果我一直在觉得厄运在我身边，那坏的事情一定会发生，但只要我的念头一转，觉得好运一直都没舍离我而去。。。。那很多好运就会一直来。原来我才发觉到人的念力跟意志力是很重要的。只要念头想的都是好事，那么每事情都是绝对的，至少我们可以样样尽力。人的运气真的会变得，三分噩运，七分好运。只是看你如何去善待及运用你的好与坏运气。噩运不一定是坏的，因为从噩运里我学习了如何去珍惜，感恩，及惜福。噩运可以提拔我们的智慧及经验，失败乃成功之母。但好运如果你不善用它，那也可以变成坏事。

这两个礼拜里面，我不断的经过小波折，如果我连着小小的波折都承受不了，那我以后如何面更大的挫折呢？舍得舍得，有舍就有得。不见并不代表永远都看不见永远再也找不回，只是要经过时间的魔考及忍耐。终有一天，我相信一定会有重逢的一天。只要缘分一到，分也分不开。只是现在暂时分开罢了。但水月的摧残，我只怕到时会认不出谁是谁，他是哪个他？身边擦肩而过也有可能性。

在坐着等待，倒不如行动是最实际，莫等待呀莫等待。等着等着，等到最后没结果，那不就等于死没两样。很多事情要自己把握，不是等别人来找上你自己。机会要自己把握。还记得小学五年级上台演讲过的题目“把握时间”，那是我人生中面对观众的大挑战。渐渐的从那天起我面对众人可以畅谈，但又渐渐的，我的胆子变得越来越小，进了大学还是拿不出勇气面对人群演讲。就算台下是自己的朋友还是会那么的紧张。为何呢？不知道。或许我还要不断地再次出发磨炼我的胆子。不是盲目的胆子，而是由智勇双全的胆子。

写了那么多，不知道自己是否应付得来吗？但有志信心，慢慢来，将慢慢一个个的难关给打败。所谓关关难过关关过。乌云大雨过后还是那一片蓝天白云太阳及七彩的彩虹。彩虹的颜色就好比每个难关后面的礼物，不同的颜色代表不同的阶乘。尝试吧！勇敢点吧！相信自己能突破超越之前的自己！加油！加油！加油加油！

feeling............

suddenly feel wan to write and post something in my blog.........
so boring and nothing to do after finish my Monday morning class (ethics and macro )
so damn boring for that macro class.............
I just sit at the back site there and sleep.......listen my music.........
but for the ethics class.............is much more fun then macro..........
today my lecturer was talk about the Madagascar the cartoon movie..............
she ask us imagine that lions eating oat..........
ha ha...........
i can't imagine la........
today learning about hard and soft objectives
and also hard and soft subjectives.......

now i feel wan to listen the hippo sing the lions sleep in the jungle............
so cute and fun...........................
so long didn't listen .........
tonight got oral class..........
haiz........

today i always go to toilet to apply the analgesic cream medicine at my back site........
so damn painful
haiz......
this is because yesterday when i want go to kitchen cooking my dinner,
suddenly i didn't saw that floor got water ........
and this water is come from the toilet .....
the black bird was washing her cloth until the water can coming out from bath room
very geng lo........
and then me was fall down like a durian runtuh
shit............
so damn painful now.....
can't sit well during study in class
why i'm so careless.....
how stupid i'm......
for now i need to take care myself ...
cause soon is Chinese New Year.......
and God......
please always stay and bless me
thank god!

birthday present

yesterday my birthday .........
i didn't celebrate it ...........
but my friend send me i present gift.........
thx alot my friend.............love your guys so much.................

ah wong give de peanut .........sweet in mouth and my heart

RED WINE~~~~~~~lee giv de present de ..........hehe
I loving IT!!!!!!!!!

haha I love both present........

bad mood on my birthday day ................

haiz...............
this morning support i can go in my macro lecture class...........
but lei.............
haiz..................
just only 1 bus come to fetch us.................me need to wait until 8:10a.m come to campus...........
haiz..........
my class start by 8a.m
bus come at 8.10am..wad i do..
late is a very embarrassing thing for me.
i rather skip class than late
now i have to skip my class.............
feel wan to cry on my brithday day lei ..................
T.T~~~~~~~~~~~``
no mood liao ...........
really no mood liao..................
last week me already lost my Polo watch ...........
after then sick again.................
now .................
skip my lecturer class again.....................
arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
oh god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!@#$%^&*(*&^%#$@#$%^&*(@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#$%^&

sick sick sick~~~~~~~~~~

I'm sick now~~~~~
during holiday at my own home town me never get sick
but now...........oh my god.............
flu~~~~~~~~
fever~~~~~~
I'm so tired................
but i still can't sleep.............
very tired~~~~~~~~
oh my god~~~~~
i feel wan to back to own home town la..........
when people get sick will miss him or her family
me also .................
i want go home............
actually i don't like go UMSKAL study............
but i still have to come here too..............
sick~~~~~~~~~~
so suffer~~~~~~~~~
very tired..............but why i still can't sleep????????
help~~~~~~~~~

回到了............

终于，
我回到了纳闽。。。。
从5/1/10 的早上10:20a.m 父亲载我去机场了
心里有万般的不舍，
但我还是必须要继续我的路程。。。。。。
遥远的路途。。。。。
经过12小时的等待及路途
再经过4个机场，两架飞机，
终于到达目的地。。。。。。
现在的心里一直在想念着遥远的家乡的亲人。。。。
心酸酸的。。。。。。。。
非常想念家人。。。。。。。。
思念真叫人难过。。。。。。。。
惟有献上心里面真诚的祝福给最亲爱的家人。。。。。。。。
希望在家乡的家人健健康康，平平安安的。。。。。。。
心里就十分满足了。。。。。。。。

但，

我很想念家~~~~~~~

my best friend wedding~ wee sze yee~

yesterday night my best friend sze yee was give me see her wedding picture....
so sweet and i can feel that how happiness their are.............
anyways wish me wish both of u always happy and also wish your baby cute cute and healthy.......
remember we are best friend for ever~~~~~~~

~happy wedding~