Friday, April 30, 2010

失眠的夜晚

失眠的夜晚,不知该如何地度过。最近都忙着考试都没办法整理自己的部落。回想一下这几天的考试情况只能说靠天意。最近都一个心结就连自己都不敢解开,因为以当这个结打开我不知道会发生什么事。是好是坏只有我知,天知,及地知就够了。要不要解开它就要等待天时地利人和咯~回想这个学期真的过得很快。一转眼第一年的大学生涯就快要结束了,迈向第二年的大学生涯了。压力会增加更多,烦恼也会一样更加多。唯有知识增加是件好事。

突然间想问自己为何自己喜欢过单身的日子?喜欢?还是不喜欢?我只能给自己一个答案顺其自然。有还是没有都不能强人所难。喜欢一个人不一定要挂在嘴边。摆在心里面自己开心,自己暗爽就够了啦!无为跟人家讲他是谁谁谁啦!一是为了自己早想,二是为了对方。有没有机会在一起只有老天知道。每次都被人质问有没有男朋友啊!我只能回答读书先,但是这句话回答得有点勉强。有时就连自己的老妈都不放过自己的女儿,问我有没有?我只能对着我的老妈子说:‘哪里有将老妈的啦!”也许是自己的老妈子的思想比起自己的概念比较摩登吧!而自己的思想比较传统,老古板吧~但是拥有老古板的思想不是一个罪吧~嗨~谁说每个年轻人一定是很新潮摩登啦!我就是例外的那一个。我很注重传统。因为只有传统的概念才是有怀念的味道,值得让人回忆过去最美好的时光。

再过几天就可以回家了~三天过后就是回家乡的日子了~期待这一天的来临很久了~望着窗外的月光心里想念着家乡。真的名句讲得好,举头望明月,低头思故乡。雪白的月光突然也让我想听许美静的“城里的月光”这首歌~一首温柔曲调的歌正好培育我写部落的心情。心里想着喜欢的人在漫漫长夜里思念他是一种享受。何乐而不为呢!夜里2点40分了~不知他们在做么呢?睡觉了吗?有没有盖好被?家是我一辈子最好的避风港,避难属,靠山,也是我最终归地的地方。城里的月光,把梦照亮,请守护他/她身旁。。。。。。。。。愿月亮用它最温柔的月光来保护我最深爱的人~~~~

好啦~是时候睡觉啦~希望有个甜蜜的梦吧~把喜欢的人化在梦里~晚安了各位~~~~

Thursday, April 15, 2010

考试!压力!

考试考试考试!搞得我团团转!头痛头痛头痛!因为功课的分数搞得我没心情学书~可是我也不想要将的啊!为什么每次当我有心的,全心全意地做某样东西到头来得到的是那么失望的结果。我不要求多但我要求好。难道将也很难达到吗?我很怕我这个学期的考试成绩退步。因为如果再退步的话。我觉得我再读下去也没用,要重考那倒不如退学。士可杀不可辱。宁愿退学好过留级。由于上个学期的成绩很烂!所以这个学期我真的希望可以拿到3.0以上以弥补我上个学期的分数!我真的每天都在祈祷,希望老天能加力加智慧给我,给与我鼓励及支持。压力是在所难免的事,真的很烦恼。非常的懊恼,老实说我真的很害怕。我不想让我家人失望,我不希望我的家人有任何一个人被人说闲言闲语。我知道如果我真的退学而读不成大学,被人取笑的不只是我而已,就连我的家人也被受牵连的!我忍!我真的希望可以一级的反驳他们,但我又不希望因为我反驳他们造成大家都翻脸。这又何苦?心里非常的矛盾~天啊!!!!!!我需要你给我的力量!我承认我的心不够坚定,所以我希望您每天给我正力量来对付这些负能量~心魔才是我最大的敌人。要打败它就要先磨练自己的意志力。意志力不够坚定就会造成贪噌痴~贪玩,噌,痴迷~~~我要如何才能倒回以前高中四的我呢?高中四的我回来啊!!!!我需要你那时的勤劳,认真,及好学的我回来啊!我需要你!我的上天请您我以前认真上学的我调回来好吗?我需要他!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

my 1st organization that i join in my uni life PMSPKAL~Nostalgia Night 2010~




in this 2nd sem i try to active myself during my uni life~
it's very hard to me~
but i would like to try to do it better~
some people mind say that join it for what?
this just only can make you more busy busy and busy
i don't care about it.
as long as i like it
i want to join what organization is my own choice
their people don't want active themselves is their own business~
what ever la~
i don't care so much~
what i want and what i like i just do it
as long is correct~
YA!
about that organization that i join in my uni is PMSPKAL
is mean "Persatuan Mahasiswa Sekolah Perniagaan Kampus Antarabangsa Labuan"
in this organization, we are doing some activity for all this University student join and play~
not even that in this organization, student can learn how to improving their soft-skill, knowledge, and even make more friend.
although my position in this organization is a secretariat
but i like it
some people told me that just a small position for what you join it
as i say just now as long i like it, i enjoy it
others thing i don't care about it~
i have my own right~
last week Saturday my PMSPKAL make a even name by ~NOSTALGIA NIGHT~
it's for 3rd year student that almost want graduate and dine list student(CGPA 3.5 above)
we all start planing this even in 5 week ago
although on that night our we are not do the best but the worst.
many problem are happen on that night
but at the end the even still finish
anyways, i think that we can do more better in next even
i believe we can do it~